The wind blows, chilling my ears and guiding me into a time of transition. These late months of the year usually brings change for many of us; whether it is in relationship, work or as we walk down a new road. My heart often sings for newness and love around this season. What is your heart singing? Does it sing a song of new love? Perhaps it sings acapella; happy to go through the season alone with time to reflect in the past months. While some are excited about change and transition, for others it can be quite daunting…what will the result of this change be? How will you continue and work through it?
As I prepare for the hours of work (outside of my day job) I’ll need to complete for a mentorship I received, I have a sense of direction and can see a positive and successful outcome. Enters the voice of Doubt. He slowly walks into my mind, so quietly that I don’t even notice his arrival and welcome him as a new thought. Like my elementary school enemy, he befriends me by first telling how wonderful this mentorship is and what amazing success will come from it. I lean into this and become excited.
Then just as I feel I’m ready to conquer my to-do list and get things moving fast and strong like a locomotive, Doubt starts to whisper…he starts to release his plan of destruction; he whisper thoughts of defeat. He places images in my mind of me doing everything I can to grow and be the woman I want to be and then tears the image apart. I see myself drifting further away from my dream and see nothing but failure; me left exhausted and like road-kill, left to the side, so destroyed I can barely recognize myself.
It takes a few days for me to actually see that these thoughts and whispers are not of my own. I realize that Doubt achieved what he set in for. He was able to bring me down for a few days. He tangled my thoughts much like a knot of yarn (which I so despise). Taking a few minutes, I remind myself that I was created as a great world changer. That my success isn’t meant for my enjoyment but to help others and so I have no choice but to push through; push through the knots of despair and dishevelment that Doubt so carefully weaved. I have to stand strong against Doubt and not let him tangle your mind and knock down your positive strides.
Your dream was placed in your heart before your creation took place. Your purpose was carefully planned before you even grew to a fetus in your mother’s womb. Little words and thoughts can’t break you down because you were made of armor. Your entire being is that of love and purpose. The strength you possess is unbreakable, unshakable. You were meant for more so it’s time to move. It’s time to continue on your path being aware of Doubt’s clever path of destruction and making him fall flat. He will be the one to fail, not you because you have a purpose; you are strong and you are ready and you are needed.